[ if he dug deeply enough, erik knows that the answer is no. people like him — they never win. there is a blindness to him, an infectious anger that has been instilled since he was young. it's not optimism to fight back. it's not pragmatism.
it is just the way it is. fight, bleed and get up again. and they haven't put him down yet. ]
[ It's admirable, in a way. Erik's spirit reminds Logan too much of his big brother for this to feel even remotely healthy, but he doesn't know the guy well enough to point out how shit like that is what destroys a man.
He's only just started working for him, technically. If one could even call the ludicrous arrangement a job. ]
[ And it's not like he's doing it for free. Nothing like monetary compensation to make it that less personal, even if part of it is Logan re-awakening bad habits of letting a tortured warrior beat him up instead of setting cities on fire.
He's not a martyr, but Erik reminds him of someone he cared for a long time ago. ]
[ when was the last time anyone wanted something to do with erik? without him manipulating behind the scenes, working up an angle? he knows the answer, but he refuses to voice it. one would call that denial, but he's gotten by through parceling what he needs and disposing what he doesn't.
it works. it's a system.
( he's a system ) ]
Not my problem what you wanna call it. But fine. I'm not complaining.
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You think there's a way to win?
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it is just the way it is. fight, bleed and get up again. and they haven't put him down yet. ]
If I can't find a way, I'll make my own damn way.
[ he'll pave it straight from hell itself. ]
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He's only just started working for him, technically. If one could even call the ludicrous arrangement a job. ]
The only challenge is staying alive.
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Do you?
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I'm still here, aren't I?
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What makes you say that?
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[ Logan doesn't know Erik well enough to foresee any shortcomings, of course. But just that much is already more than he himself is capable of. ]
I don't need to know what your aim is.
But having something to live for already makes you stronger than most.
[ It is simple and honest. Logan's not one for cryptic meanings. ]
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I know I'm strong. I never doubted myself.
thank u for these erik feelings
[ It's just going to make working for the guy a bit more interesting. ]
no thank u, i've been loving this <33
Smart move.
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[ Pissing his apparent boss off would be unprofessional. ]
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It's more than I expected.
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Why are you doing this?
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[ And it's not like he's doing it for free. Nothing like monetary compensation to make it that less personal, even if part of it is Logan re-awakening bad habits of letting a tortured warrior beat him up instead of setting cities on fire.
He's not a martyr, but Erik reminds him of someone he cared for a long time ago. ]
If that makes me a masochist, fine.
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it works. it's a system.
( he's a system ) ]
Not my problem what you wanna call it. But fine. I'm not complaining.
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I've already started to budget my groceries around this job, so I appreciate it.
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